light at the end

these past few month have been harder then anything else I have ever experienced in my entire life,

hands down.

But I can feel again. I can see the light at the end. God's blessed me and been there for me in so many ways. I couldn't have done it without him.

I'm so bad at remembering him, yet he never forgets me.

Thought of the day:

I had one, and I forgot it. I am going to start writing more. Say whats on my mind, what I am realising and learning. I know my words have value to someone, and there is always someone who gets something out of your words. Don't ever think they are worthless. I remember working at camp one summer and having to say my testimony in front of all the kids. I had nothing to say, I didn't see any worth in my story. To me its was a bunch of lame bull. The "lessons" i tried to teach out my own own experiences. I saw it as nothing. But at the end of the week when they kids could go up and talk about what they learnt one actually had taken what I had said and thought about it and realised what they could learn out of it. It encouraged me and taught me that I should never underestimate myself. I have worth and the things I say matter. God gave me the ability to speak for a reason. Just like the other gifts he gives are for reasons.

We need to use it wisely.

I need to start watching what I say. I've gotten bad at that and need to control my words, you never know who's listening.


I want to have deep conversations. I want to encourage someone and be there for them. Its what I always want, but how do I get that? How do I earn that from someone? And then how do I find the words to say?