rant & rave

Rant :

:EDIT: - i swear it will work out someday- :EDIT:


I played a show the other night and lost my voice and couldn't hit half the notes. I hate walking away from something knowing I could have done ten times better. remembering all the times I practiced and all the times it actually sounded good. I became so self concious.

Rave:
I found a place to live after may!!! And its super hella cheep! I'm bringing my own bed this time. I miss it.

I want a tatoo and am planning on getting one this year. i need to find someone who is really good at drawing leaves, clean lines simple but still detailed. thats all I'll say.

my boyfriend is a total babe and made a drive in movie theater. its the shit and totally legit. the screen is massive!!! you even tune in on the radio to listen! I'm quite proud haha.

thats all.

soundtracks

i hate this song. its such an annoying song with a plain melody and some of the lyrics feel so jumbled together but yet i relate to it. thats what I want to master most with my songs. Is to write things people can relate to. Those are the things that bring up the emotions and the inspiration that I want my music to bring up.

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And would I have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And I pray to God he hears you
And I pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And would I have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
You will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And would I have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life
How to save a life

-The Fray : "How To Save A Life"

loss.

oh how I wish I didn't care.

I can feel it in my bones.

¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

the most comforting verse in the entire bible. yet all this is meaningless if we don't follow along with the rest.

¹² Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. ¹³ You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

Jeremiah 29:11-13

We can't just go on with living our lives on our own terms and expect God to just go with that. We have to seek him and go to him and find out what he wants us to do. He has plans for us but we have to find out those plans and follow those plans in order to receive what he has to give. There is a reason we go through bad times, its because we don't follow Gods plan. Yes, he protects us but still gives us free will to do what we want and there are consequenses to that. There is evil in this world and when we refuse Gods plan we let evil ones in.


-j.

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1. Go listen to Jay and the Lovebirds new tracks. They are out of this world. SO much talent!! They're honestly inspiring. Such a pick me up when I'm in a bad mood. They could make more heads explode then any metal band ever.. and they're not even metal!!

2. When you are down and out... pray. I always forget to pray and instead just sit in my grief and bear burdens I was not meant to bear. Theres a reason Jesus died for us.

3. I have a great life and God has great plans. The only thing that can get in the way is me, and I wont let that happen.

Jay of Jay and the Lovebirds

www.myspace.com/jayandthelovebirds

friends for lovers.

I hate when life ruins songs, or bands for that matter. Music brings on nostalgia and good memories but it also brings up bad ones too. Those times when you listened to it because you were sad, or because it brings up good memories you just don't want anymore.

Music is amazing, it's so emotion based. Music, like any art form is emotions, and made to bring on emotions. It's the soul purpose. To make you feel things, think things, and motivate you to do things. It is written and inspired by the feelings of one and takes over and grabs the feelings of so many more.

It's truly incredible.

-Jacqueline.



Some photos from a past event. March 22 : 2009