90210 was amazing. AMAZING. I cried. I haven't fully teared up like that in a while. Oh teen drama.
I am moving soon. Hopefully today! I'm super excited. You'll have to come visit.I just finished another roll of film. Should have some photos up in a week. It takes forever to get them developed, I am stoked though. I am really liking using film. I love how each photo is important. Digital takes away from that because you just take as many as you like. Film is just 24 shots that make up a day or weekend or week, all have purpose. I also love how its full frame. Its beautiful.
25.5.09
hills
22.5.09
a real man.
today I realised how much i hate men who choose to treat woman like nothing but eye candy. we're not something you can just stare at, or honk your horn at as you drive by. guys are supposed to look out for the ladies. not saying all are like this, I just saw WAY too many who were today and it pissed me off. be a real man and respect a woman.
i got some film developed last week and it FINALLY was ready!! i am kinda stoked on how good my guessing skills are. These turned out not half bad.
i got some film developed last week and it FINALLY was ready!! i am kinda stoked on how good my guessing skills are. These turned out not half bad.
21.5.09
writes
I hate that disappointed tone in your voice.
jealous wings wishing they could fly just as high.
and we make friends with the birds who used to flaunt to us their sky
we'll keep this all in photographs just like how we met
so in the later years we'll dig through boxes of all the memories we kept.
all I want is to hear your heart
the floors aching groans let me know you are here
your song that calls me without words yet feels so sincere
jealous wings wishing they could fly just as high.
and we make friends with the birds who used to flaunt to us their sky
we'll keep this all in photographs just like how we met
so in the later years we'll dig through boxes of all the memories we kept.
all I want is to hear your heart
the floors aching groans let me know you are here
your song that calls me without words yet feels so sincere
18.5.09
Back to Back
The Chariot was incredible. I might have a few photos up in a bit. I took a few film shots.. lets hope they actually turn out haha.
-jack
-jack
10.5.09
it's the only way you'll get on your feet.
7-10So let God work his will in you. Yell a loud no to the Devil and watch him scamper. Say a quiet yes to God and he'll be there in no time. Quit dabbling in sin. Purify your inner life. Quit playing the field. Hit bottom, and cry your eyes out. The fun and games are over. Get serious, really serious. Get down on your knees before the Master; it's the only way you'll get on your feet.
James 4:7 (The Message)
confrontation.
I am so horrible at it. I sike myself out and think the worst, and then the worst happens because the longer you leave something the worse it gets. It's something i need to work on.
At the same time, I've come a long way. go back 2 years and this same girl wouldn't know the people she knows now because she would have been too afraid to talk to them. But I'll always be awkward. I'll accept that, and anyone who doesn't isn't worth my time.
against grey 09 the venue
9.5.09
7.5.09
lifes song
everything feels different when you add music to it. its AMAZING. it can turn an ugly building into something mysterious and beautiful, a mediocre photo into something breathtaking, a moment in time into something unforgettable. there should always be music playing wherever you go. you'll get more out of life and see things in a while new light.
today was a good day.
today was a good day.
weekend adventure: josh mitchinson is amazing, and a total babe.
4.5.09
i dont know what to do when you get that way.
i am not a fan of a short temper. I've seen too much to want to just roll with it.
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even if i was the only person left on earth I'd still want to look fabulous everyday.
today I was thinking about how it makes us feel when we are complimented on our looks. the world is so focused on how bad it is that image is everything, i think that will never stop. but the good that comes out of it is the way one feels when they are called beautiful. even though our appearance shouldn't matter, we gain so much confidence from a complement based off something the "good people" in the world are against. everyone defines beauty differently. yes there are the media standards of this world but I see nothing wrong in striving to create an image the appeals to you. its a statement of who we are. i think those who can choose to take the time to create something outwardly can do it to show how they are on the inside. this doesn't have to be the worlds standards of beauty, it's our own standards, its what we choose for our self. I think that's why some people can get so self conscious with what they wear. They are choosing to show that part of themselves. their personality in a visual way. and when its put down it's putting down more then what we wear.
i freaking love fashion. all I want to do is buy clothes right now and create outfits. put patterns and colors and fabrics and shapes together. ahhhhhh!
-j
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even if i was the only person left on earth I'd still want to look fabulous everyday.
today I was thinking about how it makes us feel when we are complimented on our looks. the world is so focused on how bad it is that image is everything, i think that will never stop. but the good that comes out of it is the way one feels when they are called beautiful. even though our appearance shouldn't matter, we gain so much confidence from a complement based off something the "good people" in the world are against. everyone defines beauty differently. yes there are the media standards of this world but I see nothing wrong in striving to create an image the appeals to you. its a statement of who we are. i think those who can choose to take the time to create something outwardly can do it to show how they are on the inside. this doesn't have to be the worlds standards of beauty, it's our own standards, its what we choose for our self. I think that's why some people can get so self conscious with what they wear. They are choosing to show that part of themselves. their personality in a visual way. and when its put down it's putting down more then what we wear.
i freaking love fashion. all I want to do is buy clothes right now and create outfits. put patterns and colors and fabrics and shapes together. ahhhhhh!
-j
3.5.09
2.5.09
light at the end
these past few month have been harder then anything else I have ever experienced in my entire life,
hands down.
But I can feel again. I can see the light at the end. God's blessed me and been there for me in so many ways. I couldn't have done it without him.
I'm so bad at remembering him, yet he never forgets me.
Thought of the day:
I had one, and I forgot it. I am going to start writing more. Say whats on my mind, what I am realising and learning. I know my words have value to someone, and there is always someone who gets something out of your words. Don't ever think they are worthless. I remember working at camp one summer and having to say my testimony in front of all the kids. I had nothing to say, I didn't see any worth in my story. To me its was a bunch of lame bull. The "lessons" i tried to teach out my own own experiences. I saw it as nothing. But at the end of the week when they kids could go up and talk about what they learnt one actually had taken what I had said and thought about it and realised what they could learn out of it. It encouraged me and taught me that I should never underestimate myself. I have worth and the things I say matter. God gave me the ability to speak for a reason. Just like the other gifts he gives are for reasons.
We need to use it wisely.
I need to start watching what I say. I've gotten bad at that and need to control my words, you never know who's listening.
I want to have deep conversations. I want to encourage someone and be there for them. Its what I always want, but how do I get that? How do I earn that from someone? And then how do I find the words to say?
hands down.
But I can feel again. I can see the light at the end. God's blessed me and been there for me in so many ways. I couldn't have done it without him.
I'm so bad at remembering him, yet he never forgets me.
Thought of the day:
I had one, and I forgot it. I am going to start writing more. Say whats on my mind, what I am realising and learning. I know my words have value to someone, and there is always someone who gets something out of your words. Don't ever think they are worthless. I remember working at camp one summer and having to say my testimony in front of all the kids. I had nothing to say, I didn't see any worth in my story. To me its was a bunch of lame bull. The "lessons" i tried to teach out my own own experiences. I saw it as nothing. But at the end of the week when they kids could go up and talk about what they learnt one actually had taken what I had said and thought about it and realised what they could learn out of it. It encouraged me and taught me that I should never underestimate myself. I have worth and the things I say matter. God gave me the ability to speak for a reason. Just like the other gifts he gives are for reasons.
We need to use it wisely.
I need to start watching what I say. I've gotten bad at that and need to control my words, you never know who's listening.
I want to have deep conversations. I want to encourage someone and be there for them. Its what I always want, but how do I get that? How do I earn that from someone? And then how do I find the words to say?
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