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three.
3.6.09
25.5.09
hills
90210 was amazing. AMAZING. I cried. I haven't fully teared up like that in a while. Oh teen drama.
I am moving soon. Hopefully today! I'm super excited. You'll have to come visit.I just finished another roll of film. Should have some photos up in a week. It takes forever to get them developed, I am stoked though. I am really liking using film. I love how each photo is important. Digital takes away from that because you just take as many as you like. Film is just 24 shots that make up a day or weekend or week, all have purpose. I also love how its full frame. Its beautiful.
22.5.09
a real man.
today I realised how much i hate men who choose to treat woman like nothing but eye candy. we're not something you can just stare at, or honk your horn at as you drive by. guys are supposed to look out for the ladies. not saying all are like this, I just saw WAY too many who were today and it pissed me off. be a real man and respect a woman.
i got some film developed last week and it FINALLY was ready!! i am kinda stoked on how good my guessing skills are. These turned out not half bad.
i got some film developed last week and it FINALLY was ready!! i am kinda stoked on how good my guessing skills are. These turned out not half bad.
21.5.09
writes
I hate that disappointed tone in your voice.
jealous wings wishing they could fly just as high.
and we make friends with the birds who used to flaunt to us their sky
we'll keep this all in photographs just like how we met
so in the later years we'll dig through boxes of all the memories we kept.
all I want is to hear your heart
the floors aching groans let me know you are here
your song that calls me without words yet feels so sincere
jealous wings wishing they could fly just as high.
and we make friends with the birds who used to flaunt to us their sky
we'll keep this all in photographs just like how we met
so in the later years we'll dig through boxes of all the memories we kept.
all I want is to hear your heart
the floors aching groans let me know you are here
your song that calls me without words yet feels so sincere
18.5.09
Back to Back
The Chariot was incredible. I might have a few photos up in a bit. I took a few film shots.. lets hope they actually turn out haha.
-jack
-jack
10.5.09
it's the only way you'll get on your feet.
7-10So let God work his will in you. Yell a loud no to the Devil and watch him scamper. Say a quiet yes to God and he'll be there in no time. Quit dabbling in sin. Purify your inner life. Quit playing the field. Hit bottom, and cry your eyes out. The fun and games are over. Get serious, really serious. Get down on your knees before the Master; it's the only way you'll get on your feet.
James 4:7 (The Message)
confrontation.
I am so horrible at it. I sike myself out and think the worst, and then the worst happens because the longer you leave something the worse it gets. It's something i need to work on.
At the same time, I've come a long way. go back 2 years and this same girl wouldn't know the people she knows now because she would have been too afraid to talk to them. But I'll always be awkward. I'll accept that, and anyone who doesn't isn't worth my time.
against grey 09 the venue
9.5.09
7.5.09
lifes song
everything feels different when you add music to it. its AMAZING. it can turn an ugly building into something mysterious and beautiful, a mediocre photo into something breathtaking, a moment in time into something unforgettable. there should always be music playing wherever you go. you'll get more out of life and see things in a while new light.
today was a good day.
today was a good day.
weekend adventure: josh mitchinson is amazing, and a total babe.
4.5.09
i dont know what to do when you get that way.
i am not a fan of a short temper. I've seen too much to want to just roll with it.
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even if i was the only person left on earth I'd still want to look fabulous everyday.
today I was thinking about how it makes us feel when we are complimented on our looks. the world is so focused on how bad it is that image is everything, i think that will never stop. but the good that comes out of it is the way one feels when they are called beautiful. even though our appearance shouldn't matter, we gain so much confidence from a complement based off something the "good people" in the world are against. everyone defines beauty differently. yes there are the media standards of this world but I see nothing wrong in striving to create an image the appeals to you. its a statement of who we are. i think those who can choose to take the time to create something outwardly can do it to show how they are on the inside. this doesn't have to be the worlds standards of beauty, it's our own standards, its what we choose for our self. I think that's why some people can get so self conscious with what they wear. They are choosing to show that part of themselves. their personality in a visual way. and when its put down it's putting down more then what we wear.
i freaking love fashion. all I want to do is buy clothes right now and create outfits. put patterns and colors and fabrics and shapes together. ahhhhhh!
-j
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even if i was the only person left on earth I'd still want to look fabulous everyday.
today I was thinking about how it makes us feel when we are complimented on our looks. the world is so focused on how bad it is that image is everything, i think that will never stop. but the good that comes out of it is the way one feels when they are called beautiful. even though our appearance shouldn't matter, we gain so much confidence from a complement based off something the "good people" in the world are against. everyone defines beauty differently. yes there are the media standards of this world but I see nothing wrong in striving to create an image the appeals to you. its a statement of who we are. i think those who can choose to take the time to create something outwardly can do it to show how they are on the inside. this doesn't have to be the worlds standards of beauty, it's our own standards, its what we choose for our self. I think that's why some people can get so self conscious with what they wear. They are choosing to show that part of themselves. their personality in a visual way. and when its put down it's putting down more then what we wear.
i freaking love fashion. all I want to do is buy clothes right now and create outfits. put patterns and colors and fabrics and shapes together. ahhhhhh!
-j
3.5.09
2.5.09
light at the end
these past few month have been harder then anything else I have ever experienced in my entire life,
hands down.
But I can feel again. I can see the light at the end. God's blessed me and been there for me in so many ways. I couldn't have done it without him.
I'm so bad at remembering him, yet he never forgets me.
Thought of the day:
I had one, and I forgot it. I am going to start writing more. Say whats on my mind, what I am realising and learning. I know my words have value to someone, and there is always someone who gets something out of your words. Don't ever think they are worthless. I remember working at camp one summer and having to say my testimony in front of all the kids. I had nothing to say, I didn't see any worth in my story. To me its was a bunch of lame bull. The "lessons" i tried to teach out my own own experiences. I saw it as nothing. But at the end of the week when they kids could go up and talk about what they learnt one actually had taken what I had said and thought about it and realised what they could learn out of it. It encouraged me and taught me that I should never underestimate myself. I have worth and the things I say matter. God gave me the ability to speak for a reason. Just like the other gifts he gives are for reasons.
We need to use it wisely.
I need to start watching what I say. I've gotten bad at that and need to control my words, you never know who's listening.
I want to have deep conversations. I want to encourage someone and be there for them. Its what I always want, but how do I get that? How do I earn that from someone? And then how do I find the words to say?
hands down.
But I can feel again. I can see the light at the end. God's blessed me and been there for me in so many ways. I couldn't have done it without him.
I'm so bad at remembering him, yet he never forgets me.
Thought of the day:
I had one, and I forgot it. I am going to start writing more. Say whats on my mind, what I am realising and learning. I know my words have value to someone, and there is always someone who gets something out of your words. Don't ever think they are worthless. I remember working at camp one summer and having to say my testimony in front of all the kids. I had nothing to say, I didn't see any worth in my story. To me its was a bunch of lame bull. The "lessons" i tried to teach out my own own experiences. I saw it as nothing. But at the end of the week when they kids could go up and talk about what they learnt one actually had taken what I had said and thought about it and realised what they could learn out of it. It encouraged me and taught me that I should never underestimate myself. I have worth and the things I say matter. God gave me the ability to speak for a reason. Just like the other gifts he gives are for reasons.
We need to use it wisely.
I need to start watching what I say. I've gotten bad at that and need to control my words, you never know who's listening.
I want to have deep conversations. I want to encourage someone and be there for them. Its what I always want, but how do I get that? How do I earn that from someone? And then how do I find the words to say?
27.4.09
rant & rave
Rant :
:EDIT: - i swear it will work out someday- :EDIT:
I played a show the other night and lost my voice and couldn't hit half the notes. I hate walking away from something knowing I could have done ten times better. remembering all the times I practiced and all the times it actually sounded good. I became so self concious.
Rave:
I found a place to live after may!!! And its super hella cheep! I'm bringing my own bed this time. I miss it.
I want a tatoo and am planning on getting one this year. i need to find someone who is really good at drawing leaves, clean lines simple but still detailed. thats all I'll say.
my boyfriend is a total babe and made a drive in movie theater. its the shit and totally legit. the screen is massive!!! you even tune in on the radio to listen! I'm quite proud haha.
thats all.
:EDIT: - i swear it will work out someday- :EDIT:
I played a show the other night and lost my voice and couldn't hit half the notes. I hate walking away from something knowing I could have done ten times better. remembering all the times I practiced and all the times it actually sounded good. I became so self concious.
Rave:
I found a place to live after may!!! And its super hella cheep! I'm bringing my own bed this time. I miss it.
I want a tatoo and am planning on getting one this year. i need to find someone who is really good at drawing leaves, clean lines simple but still detailed. thats all I'll say.
my boyfriend is a total babe and made a drive in movie theater. its the shit and totally legit. the screen is massive!!! you even tune in on the radio to listen! I'm quite proud haha.
thats all.
13.4.09
soundtracks
i hate this song. its such an annoying song with a plain melody and some of the lyrics feel so jumbled together but yet i relate to it. thats what I want to master most with my songs. Is to write things people can relate to. Those are the things that bring up the emotions and the inspiration that I want my music to bring up.
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And would I have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And I pray to God he hears you
And I pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And would I have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
You will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And would I have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And would I have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And I pray to God he hears you
And I pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And would I have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
You will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And would I have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life
-The Fray : "How To Save A Life"
7.4.09
6.4.09
I can feel it in my bones.
11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
the most comforting verse in the entire bible. yet all this is meaningless if we don't follow along with the rest.
12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
Jeremiah 29:11-13
We can't just go on with living our lives on our own terms and expect God to just go with that. We have to seek him and go to him and find out what he wants us to do. He has plans for us but we have to find out those plans and follow those plans in order to receive what he has to give. There is a reason we go through bad times, its because we don't follow Gods plan. Yes, he protects us but still gives us free will to do what we want and there are consequenses to that. There is evil in this world and when we refuse Gods plan we let evil ones in.
-j.
-j.
3.4.09
2.4.09
three
1. Go listen to Jay and the Lovebirds new tracks. They are out of this world. SO much talent!! They're honestly inspiring. Such a pick me up when I'm in a bad mood. They could make more heads explode then any metal band ever.. and they're not even metal!!
2. When you are down and out... pray. I always forget to pray
and instead just sit in my grief and bear burdens I was not meant to bear. Theres a reason Jesus died for us.
3. I have a great life and God has great plans. The only thing that can get in the way is me, and I wont let that happen.
2. When you are down and out... pray. I always forget to pray
and instead just sit in my grief and bear burdens I was not meant to bear. Theres a reason Jesus died for us.3. I have a great life and God has great plans. The only thing that can get in the way is me, and I wont let that happen.
Jay of Jay and the Lovebirds
1.4.09
friends for lovers.
I hate when life ruins songs, or bands for that matter. Music brings on nostalgia and good memories but it also brings up bad ones too. Those times when you listened to it because you were sad, or because it brings up good memories you just don't want anymore.
Music is amazing, it's so emotion based. Music, like any art form is emotions, and made to bring on emotions. It's the soul purpose. To make you feel things, think things, and motivate you to do things. It is written and inspired by the feelings of one and takes over and grabs the feelings of so many more.
It's truly incredible.
-Jacqueline.
Some photos from a past event. March 22 : 2009
Music is amazing, it's so emotion based. Music, like any art form is emotions, and made to bring on emotions. It's the soul purpose. To make you feel things, think things, and motivate you to do things. It is written and inspired by the feelings of one and takes over and grabs the feelings of so many more.
It's truly incredible.
-Jacqueline.
Some photos from a past event. March 22 : 2009
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